Newsgroups: alt.tv.x-files.creative Path: math.ohio-state.edu!magnus.acs.ohio-state.edu!csn!news-1.csn.net!torn!nott!cunews!freenet.carleton.ca!FreeNet.Carleton.CA!db561 From: db561@FreeNet.Carleton.CA (Alexandra Holbrook) Subject: NEW: The Gift (1/1) OK, this is my first story posting... I hope it works. I wrote this about a year ago but never got around to posting it, and today I decided it's not going to get any better just sitting in my disk drive, so here it is. It is nothing special, no sex, no spoilers, no violence, a little mild swearing. Again, this is my first one, so go easy on me, ok? :) Enjoy! All comments to wookiee@freespace.net. Thy disclaimers, ladies and gentlemen: I own nothing... I am dust on the ground... I kiss the feet of Mr Chris Carter and all his friends (okay, now I'm just being bitter :) The characters Dana Scully, Margaret Scully, William Jr. Scully, Melissa Scully, heck, all the Scullys, belong to Chris Carter and I'm just borrowing them for a while... but you can have them back, sir! ********************************************************************* THE GIFT by Alexandra Holbrook --------------------- Dana Scully burrowed deep under her covers, stretching her toes all the way to the end of her bed. She shivered; it was cold down there. She curled back up again in a fetal position, ready to settle back to sleep. Something tickled at the back of her mind... she poked her head out and looked at the clock beside her bed. It was 6:57. And it was February 23rd. Realization finally broke through her sleepiness, and she was suddenly wide awake. But truth be told, she was too excited to go back to sleep. It was silly, she knew; after all, it was just another birthday. she half-grumbled to herself, becoming a little grumpy from the cold, < I still can't drive and I can't see restricted movies at the theatre.> She snapped on the light and looked in the closet for her dressing gown, passing the mirror on her wall. She sighed as she appraised herself: Complexion fairly clear, but no better. Freckles dusting her nose like spilt cinnamon. Red hair disheveled and tangled. Unbecoming pillow creases crisscrossing her cheek. Her kitten Chewie padded in as she pulled on her dressing gown. "Hello, little furball," Dana said as she picked him up. He purred in her ear, and she fancied him wishing her a happy birthday. "Thank you," she murmured back. She spotted her diary on her nightside table where she'd left it the night before, and remembered to hide it in the narrow space behind her bookcase. She shuddered at the thought of all the sappy last-night-of-being-fourteen crap she'd written there, along with something stupid about Mark Wilson... she hoped no one ever read it. She carried Chewie down to the kitchen with her, tiptoeing past her siblings' rooms. She could hear snoring from behind Missy's door. she thought wistfully. The lights were on in the kitchen when she came down, the radio announcer reading the morning's news. Her mother stood at the stove scrambling eggs, her hair almost as rumpled as Dana's. She smiled broadly at her daughter. "Happy birthday, honey," she said, kissing Dana's forehead. Dana smiled back. "How does it feel to be fifteen?" Mrs. Scully continued. Dana tried hard not to laugh. "Not much different from being fourteen," she said casually, letting the cat down gently and scratching behind his ear before he strolled away. "You're up early, Mom," she added. "I thought I'd join you for breakfast. I've hardly seen you the last few days." She touched Dana's cheek, gazing at her as though trying to find some familiar feature in a face that, at times, seemed so foreign. Dana pulled away just slightly, feeling a little guilty. She'd been avoiding the entire family as much as possible for some time, especially Dad. He'd been getting on her back about her grades, about calling home when she was going to be late, about playing her radio too loud, about doing better in school sports, about how she never listened to the minister's sermons in church... As Dana got her breakfast, she noticed a package on the table, wrapped somewhat hastily. "It's from your dad. He got called in late last night... he doesn't know when he'll be back. He said you could open it this morning," explained her mother. Dana tore off the wrapping paper to reveal a dark leather baseball glove. She hadn't played in almost a year, and she realized she missed it. The glove was warm, and not stiff at all... she couldn't resist slipping her right hand into it. She found a note there, and pulled it out. SPRING TRAINING BEGINS IN THREE WEEKS, STARBUCK. AHAB She had to smile in spite of herself. She always had to, when he called her Starbuck. The leather smelled of promise, as though it were itching to receive a ball... Dana grinned as she thumped a fist into it dead centre. Margaret Scully studied her daughter, her baby girl. She knew that look... the look of a young girl challenged to do things most of her female peers didn't do. It wasn't just the fact that she was an army brat... Margaret winced at the cliched term. Dana was her own person. She needed her independance and her individual strengths to deal with being a middle child in a family that never seemed to have enough time for itself. Maybe Missy would have an easier time making friends with other girls, but she would never shoot a gun, or rough and tumble with her brothers in the yard, or help them build a raft the way her sister would. Dana had grown up a tomboy, and though Mrs. Scully worried about her, she was thriving, and there was no need to curtail her in makeup and dresses. "Well... why don't you eat your breakfast. The boys'll be down soon." For once, Dana couldn't wait for them to get up, though her reasons were pretty selfish: she knew what William Jr. had gotten her. She'd been hinting at Billy Joel's last album for almost a month, and she could depend on her older brother to secure her a copy from the music store where he worked. She'd unconsciously been humming Vienna and stopped short when her mother held out a small hinged box to her. Her face was solemn, the way it was when she was concentrating, the way it was when she prayed. "What is it?" Dana asked, suddenly a little apprehensive. "Open it," Mrs Scully pressed. Dana did as she was told, lifting the cover of the case. She picked up the thin gold chain nestled in the velvet lining of the box. She held it in her palm, touched the fine metal, cool against her fingers... Then she saw the tiny gold cross that hung from the chain. it seemed so small, yet could feel its power, its unyielding sternness. She smiled, but inside, her heart sank. "Thanks, Mom. It's beautiful." Mrs. Scully smiled back briefly, then her tone took on the same gravity as before. "I think it's important that you understand... that you always have this strength with you if your own should ever fail. There may come a time when that happens, Dana. Life's hard; things can seem so hopeless sometimes..." Mrs. Scully stopped, unable to explain furthur to a girl who couldn't yet know the meaning of pain. She shrugged. "You just need to have faith in something." The words passed over Dana like a light breeze that barely ruffled her hair. Tears came to her eyes, unbidden. Dana blinked furiously, trying to keep the childish burning out of her cheeks. "I think you'll understand better as you get older," Mrs Scully said, turning to attend to her coffee. Dana nodded, backing out of the room with a forced smile to spare her mother's feelings. "Thanks," she whispered again, waiting until she was out of her mother's sight before bolting to her bedroom. She closed the door and let herself sink down to the floor. Tears ran hot down her face, bitter, angry, shameful. She hadn't cried in months, not since their last move. A rush of new tears made its way down her cheeks. Soon Dana heard her brothers getting up, stomping around sleepily, throwing pillows at each other. She really wanted to throw some pillows too, but they would see she'd been crying. Wiping her eyes on her sleeve, she saw the necklace lying on her bed where she'd dropped it. She fingered it, not nearly so angry as she'd been before. She sniffled. Maybe crying helped a little more than she was willing to admit. She stood up and walked to the mirror. Hesitantly, with trembling fingers, she fastened the chain around her neck. some part of her asked herself. the rest answered. She arranged the necklace so that it hung under her shirt. She could see part of the gold chain at her neck, but the cross was hidden. She smiled with satisfaction, feeling better. Mom would be happy and Dana wouldn't have to go around looking like a new recruit for the nunnery. Dana searched her drawers for her favorite pair of jeans, seeking something comforting and familiar. As she dressed, she was all too aware of the cross brushing above her chest... <...and if only Andrea and Natalie would stop talking about their goddamn cup sizes, I could stop trying to walk around with my shoulders hunched.> Dana shrugged the thought away. She sighed deeply, her throat sore and nose stuffy from crying. She decided to get her books ready, to stall for time until she could try to face the day again. * * * * * The rest of Dana's day was great. Everyone was in a good mood, because a thick layer of packing snow had fallen during the night. She joined in the snowball fight at the bus stop and nailed Greg right across the back of his head. Some of the other girls looked at her funny, but she put it down to jealousy. She got an A on her science test, then a hat trick in the floor hockey game at lunch. There was a school assembly in the afternoon, so she got to miss History. The bus driver even let Dana play her new tape of The Stranger on the bus speakers. It raised her to hero status in the eyes of the other kids; Mr. Benson had a penchant for playing Frank Sinatra on most days. Dana was smiling when she got off the bus. She'd loosened her coat for the trip home and was about to zip it up when she heard footsteps running to catch up with her. Mark's infectious grin caught her off guard. "Hi, Dana," he said. "Oh, hi, Mark, " Dana answered. she thought, feeling the blush rise up above her collar. "I didn't see you there." "Me and my brothers have to visit my grandma this afternoon so I'm going your way," he said, stuffing his hands in his pockets as they trudged along the road together. "Oh yeah, happy birthday." "Thanks," she said, reaching again to zip up her jacket against the chilly wind. Mark spotted something glinting in the sunlight. "Hey, is that a new necklace?" Without waiting for an answer, he pressed on. "Can I see?" Dana shrugged as though it didn't matter. Holding her breath, she pulled the chain out from under her shirt. She stopped as Mark examined it, gently turning the cross between his fingers. "That's cool, Dana," he said, impressed. "D'jer parents give it to you or something?" "My mom did," Dana said, hiding the chain again and breathing a silent sigh of relief. "I didn't know you were religious," Mark continued. Dana's mind and voice failed to connect. "Yeah," she said neutrally. "That's cool," he said again. "It's too bad we don't have more classes together, huh?" Mark suddenly looked up. His brothers were calling him from up ahead. "Come on, Mark, quit talking to your girlfriend," they hollered. "Aw, shut up!" he howled back. But he was grinning. That wry, gentle grin. "See ya, Dana." Then he took off down the road. Dana watched him run to catch up with his friends... and was suddenly very alone. She shivered from the cold and pulled her coat more tightly around her. And as her toes froze, only the small part of Dana Scully registered that the cross felt warm against her skin. *FINE* -- "Okay... you have to stop the Q-Tip when there's RESISTANCE!!!" - Chandler Bing Thank you, that was my sig :) Alexandra Holbrook, Esquire Nutcase